Realized

I’m sitting here wide awake,

The sunlight peaks through the drapes.

You are curled up,

Sleeping and snoring loud.

I want to wake you,

Just to  squeeze you tight.

I want to tell you everything,

But I know I’ll never say it right.

I put on a smile to hide my fears,

I blink a lot to fight back tears.

You say there’s nothing to hide,

I believe you like I should.

Yet there’s apart of me,

That thinks I’m being fooled.

I feel like we are changing,

But maybe it’s just me.

Maybe I’ve realized,

I want different things.

Maybe I’ve realized,

I don’t want to be us.

Maybe I’ve realized,

We went to fast.

Maybe I’ve realized...